Thoughts on Me

A long time ago I decided I hated January because it is the coldest month, Christmas is over, family is gone, and all I remember my parent's doing in January was complaining about how broke they were and saying no to everything because we had no money. Well this year I have changed my mind. It hit me the other day that January is the coolest. It's a chance for a fresh start, for goal setting, for forgiving ourselves for old mistakes and starting again. As I was deciding what changes I wanted to make in my life this year I remembered something Elder Jorg Klebingat said this past conference:

"Whatever you do, whatever you pray for, whatever hopes for a miracle you may have, there will always be just enough self-doubt chipping away at your faith—not only your faith in God but also your confidence in yourself. The decision to change is yours—and yours alone."

The thing about being a mom is so often you forget you are still an individual. I sometimes feel so "Woe is me!"because I lose myself (and not in a good way) between all the taking care of everyone but myself. My favorite mom writer calls it the "Martyr Syndrome" and I sooo agree with that. I need to add things in my life to help me remember that I'm still Valeria. That I am young and beautiful,that my people love me and life is great.

I want this year to be a year of cleansing both of body and of mind. I want to be strong both spiritually and physically for my husband, my children and for me. I want to show them and me that I can do hard things.